Dear Aeva,
This is going to be ridiculous to you when, and if, you read this when you are older. What teenage girl likes to read things her mother wrote to her when she was an infant? I hope you do. I heard a phrase on a lame TV show today, and I'm going to take it and do it my way, to you, my little girl.
When babies are born, we are amazed at their little feet, their little hands, and the little miracle that they are. Some babies come into this world under extraordinary circumstances, and make their presence known. You, my dearest little girl, are one of those babies. You came into this world under the most extraordinary, stressful, traumatic, sporadic...and loving...situations.
Being a baby concieved merely on love during your dad's mid-tour leave from his second tour in Iraq, you've been special from conception. You're our souvenier from Daddy's leave. We wanted nothing more than to have you.
When it was decided that you were to come into the world, it was again love that brought us all through. Your daddy was there for me in every way, and we hoped we could keep you inside just a little longer...we wanted you to be okay. Making an entrance, your presense inside of me was hurting me as much as your birth was about to. I felt terrible you were coming early. It took a very,very, very, very long time for me to come to terms with your early birth. When you read this, I'll probably still cry talking about your entrance into this world.
You didn't coming out kicking and screaming, rather, you came out blue (at least that's what I hear). You took your first breathe and made the cutest little sound....and that sound allowed me to breathe. The subsequent three months were the hardest things your father and I had had to go through in our lives.
You were so small...yet so strong. You've had a presense about you since birth. Such a strong little girl, and so totally my hero. You're asleep on my chest right now after finishing a bottle; you're 5 months old. So little, and such a big girl to us already, and you have no idea how much you have already gone through. You truly are my hero, Aeva.
I hope on these little feet that one day you will be able to stand on them alone, successfully, from the tools we have taught you.
I hope on your cute little baby tushy, that when you fall, you know we'll always be here to help you get back up.
I hope that your tummy's hunger is never sacrificed to fit into a pair of jeans...I hope that we give you a good sense of self and self esteem that you do not fall into the media's scheme of targeting young girls into thinking they need to be skinny.
I hope your heart is open to love, and to be loved. I hope that you notice the love your dad gives you and I, and take his example and apply it towards whom you should marry. Your daddy is the only man who will ever love you NO MATTER WHAT. He will always protect you, and you will always be HIS little girl. Accept nothing less from another man, than the standard of which your dad has created.
I hope these bright blue eyes are open to see the world. I hope they are accepting to other cultures, people, and see the good in people, and in the world.
I hope these ears are open to listen...to the sounds of nature...to the sounds of disparate opinions that you inevitably will hear throughout your life.
I hope your mouth with speak nothing of goodness, intelligent thoughts, and eloquence.
And I hope that this mind of yours is open to learning new things...every day. To be openminded about new ideas, new places, new people. I hope you read...travelling the world, space, and time.
Most importantly, I hope that we give you the tools to do this on your own. I hope we teach you to enjoy new places, and new people. To appreciate differing cultures, times, and places.
I hope you learn from the wisdom everyone in your life has to give you. I hope you learn discipline and self control. I hope you learn compassion towards those not as fortunate as you, and appreciation for all that we give you.I hope you learn patience and honesty.
I hope you realize that Daddy and I are the only ones, really, the only ones, who will be here for you no matter what you do, right or wrong. We will support you in all your endeavours, and help you acheive your dreams. Just remember that they are YOUR dreams.
The best things in life come in small packages, and my sweet little girl, you were once a tiny package. You may be small, but you made an entrance into the world with all eyes on you. Never let those eyes off you, and make every day the best that you can. Live your life how YOU want to live it.
Love,
Mommy
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